This post is going to be a little personal, if you wish to pass on you can but I will feel happy if you choose to read it.
I am looking at my past with tears in my eyes, I feel the speed of time is too fast and I always pray to make it a bit slow, but I think my prayers are not being heard, actually this does not matter to me now as soon as I have access to my memories but they are fresh now, I am wondering what is going to happen when I’ll grow up. I am feeling nostalgic about my past. When I was just a kid I owned many dreams now when I see my life, I think of that kid, what he will think of me? Earlier I used to change my dreams frequently now only wish to stay a child as long as it is possible.
I thought that being grown-up will be fun but it is just an antonym for the word called fun.
There were many people in my life and I wanted them to stay but this speedy time has no mercy and it took them away and currently is in progress to take away more, I think he is jealous of me, maybe he was as lonely as I am. I lost my friends and now old friends of mine just hung on a branch of the tree of my life and that branch is growing weaker and weaker day by day and I fear the day will come when it will make that branch fall on the ground of the forgetting….
There were times when my biggest fears were stage fear and dark rooms but now I only fear of losing in life and losing precious peoples. It had not been so long but my session of class eleventh is going to end soon and I know there are going to be some changes in my and these are going to leave scars of their presence. They are arriving and I am just waiting. Let those moments be lost, I do not care now, the only thing in which I am interested is to fathom the pain and limit of time and its impact. How many friends it will take away from me??? No matter how many it takes but still one of them will always stay with me and that is me.
It is not that I like to stay with me, it is because I do not have long lasting friends and I do not want to cry or feel sad later for temporary ones.
This world is growing old for me and I have less time, it is good that I awaken myself early. I am going to fulfill each and everything what the kid in me once desired. There are some people whom I will never forget.
These are the words of every tear that I shed today.